I am sick of being overweight

Every piece of food that goes over my lips I can see appearing on my body. It's disgusting. I could eat nothing and gain like 12674289853742752627 stone. I just want to be thin and beautiful. I want to feel my bones as I move.

I was doing so well losing weight but now it's stopped and gone in reverse. Why can't the weight lose continue? I just want to be skinny.

I've set myself a 2lb weight loss a week diet. I will have the body I want. I'm about 136lbs. That's just fat, fat, fat.

I used to eat next to nothing and not feel hungry. Now I have almost nothing and feel the constant need to eat. I'm a fucking disgusting mess.