Today is okay. I'm going for lunch with Mikey just for something to do. I'm so sick and tired of being bored and skint. Bored because I'm skint. I miss the days when I could do whatever I wanted, go wherever I want because money was no object. I want a job but I don't at the same time. I'm loving my college course but my bursary is not high enough in my opinion. I mean, I can feed myself and pay my bills but I have no money left over to do anything.

Everyone needs some kind of stimulus, right? I sit in this room and play the computer or watch TV. I know I should be studying but I just don't want to. So, I'm going to Wetherspoons for some grub. I shouldn't be eating such high calorie shite because I feel myself gaining weight. I'm convinced that everyone anything goes over my lips it instantly becomes visible to the World. Is that crazy? Am I crazy? Am I just deluding myself or are my thoughts not imaginary? I went to the gym for the first time in almost 5 years yesterday. My body is suffering today. I wish I could eat as much as I wanted without being conscious of gaining weight. In the last 3 years I've lost over 3 stone but it's not enough. I need to lose more. I want to lose more. I want to feel beautiful. I want to be beautiful. 

I've gone completely off topic but then again, there never really was a point to this post. There's never a point to anything I do.